I leave the door unlocked, I leave the lights. And she was the first beautiful thing I got stuck on.

I think about killing myself not like a point on a map more like a glowing exit sign to a show that has never been too bad to leave.

You know what i realized today is that my life is not as bad as it could be. My life is actually really good at the moment. I have an amazing girlfriend of 7 months. I have an amazing job that I enjoy so much. I am also getting closer to being a firefighter. I figured this out when I found out that a 13 year old boy who i babysat died on Sunday. He left his twin sister and one other sister and one little brother. His family does not know if he hung himself or is he fell and it happened but they found him hanging from a tree. I could not imagine how hard that must be for his family to have to go threw life not knowing.